Death

I know somebody who died last saturday. His funeral is tomorrow. I don't know if I ever talked to him but I've talked to his ex-wife and daughter a lot. He had a six-stringed bass and everyone in my high-school thought he was cool.

I just realized how much I idolize Eliot's nap time. My whole day is for his nap. And just how do I use this time? I try to do something I can't do very well when he's awake: eating in peace, sitting in quiet, taking a bath, reading, whatever. I feel like its my time of the day. So consequently, during this time I am aware of my passing moments- I end up in a stressful state during the entire napping time. Really I now that his awake time is not that bad- its actually quite pleasant in fact.